Part Two
By the River
Siddhartha wanders into the forest, knowing that he can never return to his
former life. He is disgusted with his life and wants only oblivion. When he
reaches the river, the same river he had been ferried across as a young man, he
wants to throw himself into it and drown. Then he hears the holy word OM, which
means "perfection," welling up from within his soul, and for a moment he
remembers the divine, and regrets that he had wished to die. He falls asleep and
wakes up many hours later, feeling refreshed. It is as if he has been reborn. He
sees a monk in a yellow gown sitting opposite him, and immediately recognizes
him to be his old friend, Govinda. Govinda is still a disciple of the Buddha, and is
on a pilgrimage. Govinda does not recognize Siddhartha until Siddhartha
identifies himself. Siddhartha says that although he is not going anywhere in
particular, he is on a pilgrimage, which surprises Govinda because Siddhartha is
still dressed in his rich clothes. The two men part on friendly terms, although
Govinda is mystified by what his friend tells him. After Govinda leaves,
Siddhartha reflects on his life. He feels he has returned to how he was as a child,
without possessions, and without knowledge. He accepts all his experiences that
have led him to this point, and he is happy. He realizes that when he was a
Brahmin and an ascetic, too much knowledge had hindered him, and he had
been arrogant. He had had to go out and lose himself in worldly activities
because that was the only way the arrogant Brahmin self could be destroyed.
Then, out of his despair, a new man could arise.
Analysis
When he arrives at the river, Siddhartha's true awakening can begin. The river
acts as a symbol of the totality of life, the unity and the diversity together, that
Siddhartha must experience if he is to comprehend the ultimate nature of life.
However, he is not yet aware of the full significance of the river. He only knows
that he loves it and wants to stay near it. He has a great deal still to learn, but he
is finally on the right track.
Govinda returns to the story in this chapter to serve as a contrast to Siddhartha.
Govinda is content to be a follower of the Buddha, to live within a set of teachings
and doctrines he accepts. Siddhartha, on the other hand, must forge his own
path.
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